Hair Shower Party

It is the 12th day.

Today..

My hair has started shedding.

But this is just cancer.

I am still beautiful.

(I have to remind myself that!)

Bea, and everyone.. Thank you.

A party for having cancer.. 

A Hair Shower.

You have created a very touching moment out of pain.

For seeing in me what I could not see in myself..

I know it's all about love.

*A Hair Shower is like a Baby Shower, but friends give you hair stuff*

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First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Bacharach and My Baby

Peace of Mind

Hey, Cancer

Goodbye, My Child

First Chemotherapy Session

I just finished my first chemotherapy treatment today!

I covered my hair because I looked like 1/3 of Tina Turner without the wax :))

This was how it looked like.. 

2 different medicines, 1 hour of drip each.

But the whole process took 6 hours.

My biggest inspiration of a friend was there with us all throughout..

Helping us distract me from all the pain!

You see.. aside from the normal drip pain..

The first nurse did not insert the needle right.

It was in me for 30 minutes until I could no longer take it.

Another nurse had to remove it and poke me once again.

I have always been so scared of needles, and that was really traumatic.

I left with an unnecessary swollen bruise.

But I am home.. slightly giddy for now :)

1 down, 3 more to go!

The next treatment is after 21 days.

Meanwhile..

My baby love is having fun with my sister's family..

Watching his cousins at their Taekwondo class..

And wanting to join them! :)

Thank you Lord for our very loving family and friends!

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So Long.. Hair..

Bacharach and My Baby

Peace of Mind

Hey, Cancer

Goodbye, My Child

So Long.. Hair..

The first thing my Oncologist told me was..

"For breast cancer, it's total hair loss.. "

I thought I was already prepared for it..

But tears still.. 

I still cried..

I've always had long hair.. almost never had short hair..

and never used to.. 

No hair.

But what bothered me the most was when she said..

"After chemo, your new hair would be curly and coarse.."

Seriously?!

Anyway, I decided to cut my hair in preparation.

Chemo can take away what's left..

But it can no longer break me down!

(I hope and pray)

I'm ready! 

And so are my headscarves and wigs!

Though I still get shocked every time I pass by a glass or mirror nowadays.. 

Because I just couldn't find myself..

Because boy.. I look like a boy right now!

*Thank you Sherick, Bea and Dean for keeping me sane at the salon*

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Bacharach and My Baby

Peace of Mind

Hey, Cancer

Goodbye, My Child

Letter No. 30 - Our Strength

Dear Lance,

Below is a Bible verse Mommy always sang when she was as a kid:

"Philippians 4:13 - He gives me strength.. Yes, He gives me strength..

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!"

Please keep it in your heart :)

YOU are the strength God has given Daddy and Mommy..

And we live everyday knowing how much God loves us..

Just by looking at you!

We love you so much, our Oli :)

Love,

Daddy and Mommy

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Letter No. 31 - Despite Everything

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