My Mountains and Mount Kinabalu

I have conquered mountains..

Of fears and of tears..

Of heights in the night..

In pain through the rain.

I have..

Not because of my courage and strength..

Not at all..

But because my hand has been held..

Over the clouds..

Beyond the sunrise..

Up the slopes..

10 steps at a time.

I have conquered my mountains..

Because I love him, and my little him.

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With our friends at Mount Kinabalu, Malaysia - 2011

Letter No. 33 - Taiwan

Dear Lance,

You do remember Taiwan with Mommy's family, right?



*Yes..

Because when I ask you about it..

You would say Guama, Guakong.. me!

Because we were in the same room as them!



You were 26 months old.. so fast and full of energy!

Golden Waterfall, Ruifang

Mommy got so exhausted from chasing after and carrying you..

Alice is Coming Restaurant, Zhongzheng

That after the trip, I realised I could handle anything in life! :)

Jiufen, Ruifang

But I loved our trip!

Did you like it?

*Yes..

Swiss Garden, Nantou

You were running and jumping around with your cousins and the birds..

Yehliu Geopark, Wanli

Picking up pebbles at the park..

Laughing at every little thing..

Taipei Zoo, Wenshan

Even at the tortoises and bears at the zoo.

You were just plain happy..

Rainbow Village, Taichung

And me, too.. 

Because of you!

Matina Mill, Cingjing

You made Taiwan so memorable for Mommy..
And I cannot wait to explore the world more with you!

Love,
Mommy

*Yes.. - I read this Letter to you Lance, and you really answered those :)

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Letter No. 32 - 2nd Birthday

Letter No. 31 - Despite Everything

Letter No. 30 - Our Strength

Letter No. 29 - Kiss My Chubby Foot

Radiation Ends

It is surreal..

Thank you Almira :)

We are back to celebrating life.. more than ever!

Thank you Lord.. 

For always being there through the love of our family and friends :)

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I laid down on the hard radiation therapy bed one last time..

Staring into space..

Is it really over?

2 minutes.. 1 minute..

Jian Yong, Espi, and Hui Leng

"Jamie.. you're done."

Cheng Shun and Wendy

It is.. over!! :)

*To my radiation therapists:

Jian Yong, Espi, Hui Leng, Cheng Shun, and Wendy,

You are amongst the nicest people I have met in the hospital.

Thank you for taking good care of me everyday for the last 6 weeks.*

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Spring Has Come

Radiation Starts

Sometimes.. Hairstyle

3 / 4 .. Carpe Diem!

2 down.. 2 To Go!

Hair Shower Party

First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Letter No. 32 - 2nd Birthday

Dear Lance,

You are 2!!

And taking a proper family picture with you..

Has become really hard to do!

*Once again.. you've wriggled out and left Mommy and Daddy*

*And there.. you're cutting your birthday cake*

But sweetheart..

You.. candid.. is always perfect!

And that's all you have to be :)

Happy 2nd Birthday Our Oli!

We love you so much!

Love,

Daddy and Mommy

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Letter No. 31 - Despite Everything

Letter No. 30 - Our Strength

Letter No. 29 - Kiss My Chubby Foot

Spring Has Come

As I wait for my boys to come home from a music class..

I browse through pieces.. that girl seems to be in the past..

My hair has started growing 2 weeks ago..

Spring has come.. And that girl you know..

She will never be the same..

Because though she's not done..

She knows she has won!

*Pictures taken in Ribeauville, Alsace Region, France*

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Radiation Starts

Sometimes.. Hairstyle

3 / 4 .. Carpe Diem!

2 down.. 2 To Go!

Hair Shower Party

First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Radiation Starts

Radiation has begun..

No more time in the sun..

I know what you're thinking!

Take off my headpiece.. 

I'm a chubby monk! :)

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I would also have been curious..

It's that machine behind me.. 

I have markers on my body..

Everyday.. 5 minutes..

Lie down.. Stay still.. Done.. Feel nothing..

Like a slow sun burn.. That gets worse in time..

Home to my son..

Fresh Aloe vera and essential oils..

3 down.. 27 to go! :)

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Sometimes.. Hairstyle

3 / 4 .. Carpe Diem!

2 down.. 2 To Go!

Hair Shower Party

First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Beginning 2018..

Counting my blessings over and over..

My reality..

And all I'll ever need :)

*Candid Shot*

*First family picture for 2018, taken only today, as we kept forgetting*

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Last Chemo, Yesterday

Sometimes.. Hairstyle

3 / 4 .. Carpe Diem!

Last Chemo, Yesterday :)

And Lord.. Please let it be my last chemo, forever! Thank you, Lord!

Before chemo days.. we go out on dates..

Because cancer has reminded us to always cherish the time we have..

And because nothing tastes good the next 12 days after chemo!

Side effects are on.. faster this time..

But I am glad this stage is almost over!

We are now looking forward to our wedding anniversary, my birthday, christmas at the beach with our younger sisters and of course, Lance, and our happy new year! :)

Radiation Therapy will start on the 4th week of January..

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Sometimes.. Hairstyle

3 / 4 .. Carpe Diem!

2 down.. 2 To Go!

Hair Shower Party

First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Bacharach and My Baby

Peace of Mind

Hey, Cancer

Goodbye, My Child

Sometimes.. Hairstyle

From my precious.. Gollum hair..

To my dream hair come true!

Never knew being bald could be this fun :)

Thank you, Jobelle. I love you!

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3 / 4 .. Carpe Diem!

2 down.. 2 To Go!

Hair Shower Party

First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Bacharach and My Baby

Peace of Mind

Hey, Cancer

Goodbye, My Child

Letter No. 31 - Despite Everything

Dear Lance,

Mommy is temporarily unwell..

But people often ask me..

"How do you stay happy despite everything?"

How do I.. ?

You see.. I love you so much.

When I was sad.. 

You felt it.. You knew.

You would wipe my tears..

And you would suddenly dance to cheer me up.

With Gua-Ma

I love you so much..

And I wanted you to stop seeing me sad..

Because despite everything that happened..

I still have you.

And you..

You are my everything.

You deserve a happy Mommy..

And that's what I will always strive to be.

Love,

Mommy

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Letter No. 30 - Our Strength

Letter No. 29 - Kiss My Chubby Foot

Letter No. 28 - Singapore ArtScience Museum

3 / 4 .. Carpe Diem!

3rd chemo session done last Friday..

My life may have paused.. but it never stopped!

So much love has flown to us..

Nothing hinders.. 

We continue to seize our beautiful days!

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2 down.. 2 To Go!

Hair Shower Party

First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Bacharach and My Baby

Peace of Mind

Hey, Cancer

Goodbye, My Child

2 Down.. 2 To Go!

Second chemotherapy session done today!

And because I had so much free time while on drip..

Christmas holiday also booked today! :)

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I am giddier this time.. But still eating a lot..

Hopefully the next few days would not be so bad..

Because God answers prayers! :)

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Hair Shower Party

First Chemotherapy Session

So Long.. Hair..

Bacharach and My Baby

Peace of Mind

Hey, Cancer

Goodbye, My Child